Well today my lounge is supposed to be getting picked up.. Wonder if this fool will arrive on time today??? I shouldn't sound so bitter towards the guy, but it's the frustration in the fact that a lounge so new should need to be taken away for repairs anyway..
Well my portions are quite large now, although my meals are still far smaller than what I used to have, I also have to slap myself silly when I bust myself picking at my kids leftovers before having dinner myself. .. Its a bad bad habbit that I just have to break, so I told my kids that from now on, as soon as they are finished, they have to put their scrapps straight into the bin.. That way, I know i wont go bin diving for them.
My weightloss is still at a standstill, which is driving me nuts, but I am sure that once I have this fill on monday, it should starts moving down again.. It had bloody better.. I didnt pay $19,000 for nothing ( no insurance, no super).. I am not looking forward to feeling the tightness again, as well as being on rotten liquids for a whole 24 hrs followed by more mushys... GRRRRRR.. oh well at least it isnt for as long this time.
I intend to tell the nurse that I do not want to even see the size of the needle, even bloody blindfold me if she has to..I just want to shut my eyes and have it all over with..
I consider myself to be extremely lucky with my band so far, but am kind of worried what this fill will bring.. I hear of people not being able to keep anything at all down, and vomiting and pain... I just have to think positive... this wont happen to me.
I also worry that when I get my fill, that I will no longer be able to eat rice and pasta.. As at the moment, I have no problems getting them down.
I am still so glad that I got this band, and am sure that I will be saying the same thing in 12 months. Alreay I have become a much happier and positive person, as prior to the band, I was that unhappy and uncomfortable within myself that it reflected on how I was with everyone else.
No more Mean Nene, coz I'm on my way to Lean Nene.. lol