Yesterday I went and bought a Wii fit.. and I have every intention of putting it to good use.. but I am thinking that I am still going to need alot more than that.. I need the gym.. and all along I have said that I am going to join.. and then I find myself making excuses for myself not to join.. For example, not enough time between working, being home for the kids, i.e getting them looked after whilst I go to gym coz hubby doesnt get home till 7pm most nights..and the main thing.... MONEY.. you see I was a member of this gym when it first opened, and out of the 1 year membership, I only went about 3 months of it.. but this time is different...
I MUST GO!!! I dont want to be one of those people that I have sniggered about having the band and still being fat 2 years later...
I WANT TO BE SLIM AND ATTRACTIVE GOD DAMN IT!!!!
I want to see progress in myself again.. I want to hear the comments I was once getting again.. I am 1 week away from my 6 month bandiversary, and am not up with the weightloss of where I wanted to be.. I am still stuck on where I was a few weeks ago.. Aaarrrrgggghhh.. Will someone kick my big fat dimply arse NOW!!!
Ok, so I have had my vent, and AM going to join this damn gym.. as well as do the Wii Fit... I am going to watch my portions, and stuff myself to the point of regret... AND I am going to get filled to the fricken hilt on friday, just to get me under the 120kg mark.. LOL... you all probably think that I'm crazy... but I want to feel this working for me again..I might just go get filled back to 2mls again.. so be it if i cough, choke and fart my way through my pigion shit sized meals..I am gonna do this..
Ok.. I better stop now..