Monday, November 30, 2009

THE BIG PINEAPPLE

Hello ladies, I hope you all have had a great week end.. Well yesterday morning (sunday) we were trying to think of what we could do for the day, with it being so hot and all.. So we decided to jump in the car and head for the sunshin coast.. and where did we end up??? The Big Pineapple... And I must say, What a let down.. That place has gone downhill so much that I dont know how it survives. As you will see below, we made a bee line for the "Famous Parfait Deserts" that the Big Pineappple is also famous for.. as as you will see in the pic below, we bought 2 Banana Split deserts to share among the 4 of us. For a cost of $20.. RIP OFF!!! it actually looks nice in the pic, but in reality, the fruit they used it it was rotten, and very soggy..
They look excited to tuck into it, but they soon lost their enthusiasm.

Is Montel trying to take a bite??? lol..


And as usual, a pic of me for good measure.. the lighting wasnt the best though. Bit I am starting to realise that I dont look like such a huge blob next to hubby..
Now I have a question for all you banded girls that like to indulge in or even binge in the occassional alcoholic beverage....Have any of you found that you can no longer drink as much as before?? I mean, I can drink about 4 drinks (usually bourbon and coke zero or pepsi max, or something similarly fizzy) and although I might feel a lil tipsy, and feel like drinking more.. I physically cant because I will begin to feel sick..not sure if it from all the bubbles.. or that i am drinking too fast... any ideas?? Not saying that I want to get roaring drunk, but I want to at least be able to enjoy a liquid xmas/new year, if I cant indulge in the foodier parts of it.. lol
Anyway, I've had minimal sleep overnight, and want to get some rest before I start work this afternoon.
Catch you later..
xx Nene




Friday, November 27, 2009

PRE BAND PICS

I was going through an old USB stick lastnight, and came across some more horrible pics.. of me Pre Band.. Its sad to think, that I actually thought I looked ok back then..
OMG, I seriously look pregnant here.. and I considered that top slimming on me. But then to admit it, I did used to walk around with my hand on my stomach, hoping that people would think I was preggas instead of just plain supersized.

Look at my face.. Oh words cant describe.. YUK


And another one.
Having lost a noticeable amount of weight, I sometimes find it strange when people come up to me and say "Wow Jennene, you look fantastic, Have you lost weight??" I mean, I am seeing that I have lost it, but to know that other people are seeing it, is very flattering. It makes me feel good. But the truth is, I still have alot of the same insecurities today that I had at full weight. I find that when people look at me, I must have something out of place, or get worried that they may think, "OMG look at her, she shouldnt be wearing that".. etc etc..
I would love to go to a funpark/themepark with the kids.. But I still feel that I would be too big to go on the rides, athough I do know that I went on those rides when I was bigger than I am now, so it wouldnt physically be a problem. But phsycologicaly I am being held back ( I think thats how best to explain it).
Well I best be getting ready for work. Have a lovely week end girls..Oh and to Tammy, I have been slack, I will reply your email soon.
xx Nene



Thursday, November 26, 2009

SHOWING OFF AGAIN (lol)

Here are some more pics.. I got Montel to take them this morning, of me modelling my latest addition to my wardrobe.. Lovly little strapless (straps supplied, but optional) dress. Comes complete with the belt looking attatchment too. Bonus.. I'm still not entirely confident about going strapless, so if I am going to wear this is the near future, I will be using the ones supplied, they are pretty much as thick as a convertable bra strap. Looking at these pics, I also realise that this dress isnt the most flattering, but I like it anyway.
So today is my day off work, and I have been hunting down and bargain shopping for xmas lights. I have spent an hour or two in the sun, putting them on the tree out front, and on our back deck.. and ouchy wah wah... I got me some sunburn..
On the scale front, not so happy.. For some reason, I have gone up again, by almost a kg.. Oh well Shit Happens. Once again, it's that festive time of year, and I'm not going to behave, nor will I ever behave at this time of year.. lol ... infact, I just finished off a small slice of my new favourite dessert.. Sara Lee's Caramel Banana Barvarian.. Soo yum, and I have never really been a dessert kind of person. I much prefer savoury food.. But with this hot weather, it goes down a treat.
Well, there you have it, just a short blog from me today..
xx Nene

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

QUIZ Q&As

1. How long have you been banded?
9 Months & 26 days
2. What was your highest pre-band weight and current weight now?
My heighest pre-band weight was 146.6kg (323lb)
My weight now is 109.9kg (242lb)
3. What is your best "go-to" food to get your protein?
Cashews, Cheese ... ummm is peanut butter counted as protein.??
4. What is your favourite protein brand/shake?
They are all disgusting... yuk yuk yuk.. However the one I had prior to banding was the optifast strawberry, blended with heaps of ice to almost make it eatable with a spoon..
5. What food do you miss the most, now being post band?
I miss being able to tuck into a big juicy burger (with the bun), I miss jam & cream donuts, and the list could go on.. but in saying that, I certainly dont go without.
6. What is your favourite mushy food?
Taco mince with mashed sweet potato..
7. What was your worst PB experience?
Ohhh, I have had more than I care to remember. Boiled Egg is a bad one to PB on. The hardest was to try to PB into an empty take away outlet bag whilst hubby and kids are in the car. (I am very private about PBing) so it was horrible.
8. What has been the hardest part about this journey so far for you?
Not being able to drink as much as I want when I am thirsty after a meal, and also of late, not being able to consume as many alcoholic beverages as I would like to because of the carbonation filling me up too quick. Other than those, it's not really that hard. The PB's and stuckages get a bit annoying, but it's a wake up call.
9. What is your best NSV to date?
umm, what is NSV?? I will come back to this..if someone can explain what it is..
10. What is your top non-weight goal for your band?
To be able to go into any shop that I want and buy and fit into what ever I want. I have full confidence in my looks and figure, and about my life (long story)...
11. What is your goal weight or size?
I think my person goal is to get to 80kgs. I am quite tall, and feel that this weight would be ok with me. It might be a little over my recommended weight, but I'm doing this for me, not the text books. I can have myself a bit of booty and curves if I so wish..
12. What band rule do you live by?
I dont really drink with meals (it only causes a PB anyway) But ruloes are made to be broken. :)
13. What band rule to you not follow as much?
The no snacking rule and the no carbonated/ soft drinks rule, ohh and the protein first rule..
14. What is your goal reward?
An overseas trip (not sure where to, or who with, but I'm doing this for me)
15. In the spirit of Thanksgiving being right around the corner (U.S) , what are you most thankful for, post-band?
I am most thankfull for the improvements in my health and the fact that I have lost this weight relatively problem free. I am slowly regaining confidence and a little independance and realise I dont need to be pushed down into a corner, thinking I am not good enough anymore. I love how this magical little piece of .... whatever it is... had helped me to regain life again.


xx Nene

Hello

I was just browsing through peoples pics on lapbandtalk.com and came accross a womans pics of her healed / healing tummy tuck.. I must say, she looks fantastic, and flat.. BUT... it has me scared shitless. It's certainly alot more invasive than the lapband installation. But also when looking at the womans pics, I noticed how petit she has become, and checked back at her old pics, and noticed that her sizing was very similar to mine. Which brings me to the new realisation that I could end up like that..I really dont picture myself ever getting slim/ skinny. I just cant imagine it. And if I do get to that point, will I be happy with myself then? Probably not..
I know that I have lost weight, and can see in my reflection that I have too. But I find that I am even more critical or my wardrobe choices now, because i want to accentuate the places where I have lost the most weight. Yet I want to hide my turkey neck wobble gobble arms. But alas, it's too hot to be wearing my little cardy's. So I just dust plenty of bronzing powder on the pale bits and hope for the best..

My weight is bouncing around on the spot again.. I am at 109.9 again.. which is a little nervy for me, as I dont want to get into the 110's again.. I really want to be down to 106kg by xmas day. But to be honest, I am not pulling out all stops to make it happen, so if it doesnt, it doesnt.. I'm just going to try to enjoy this festive time of year, and worry about it in the New Year.. Does that sound a bit wrong?? Well who gives a hoo har if it is...

Oh, as i told you, my sister is getting banded on 2nd Feb 2010.. and one of my best friends Wendy was just given her date yesterday through the same surgeon also.. she will be getting banded on 4th Feb 2010. I am really happy for both of them, as I know just how much of a life change it will give them. And the fact that they can go through it all together is wonderful too.

They are also lucky in the way that they will end up with my clothes... jeez I wish I had have had someone ahead of me to hand me down theirs.. would certainly have saved me some money.. But I'm only too happy to get that ball rolling for them.

Anyway, I must get off my ass and look busy, I'm sure there will be some drinks to fill and stock to pull forward and so forth.
Ohh and by the way.. for any of you Aussies.. have you tried the new Carb Free and Sugar Free energy drink called SYNERGY?? It's along the same lines as Red Bull and V... anyway, it's really nice and without the guilt.. Certainly kicks me up the butt and gets me moving right along.
Ok Luvlys..
xx Nene

Sunday, November 22, 2009

MORE PICS

Well today, being as hot as it has been, off we went to Nana's (my parents) pool. As you can see from Ayisha's pic below, she just loves her new lil bikini.. Oh how I wish to be able to pose with pride like her one day.. As you can see, I really need to buy a matching sarong for my swim suit.. BTW, this swim suit (tankini) is too big. My boobs just hang into it.. Not pretty..
Me and my girl

Me and My boy








Just to check how this vlog thing is gonna work for me, I thought I would add this to test it out.. Montel doing his flips into the pool.

Hope you all have had a great week end.
xx Nene

Saturday, November 21, 2009

DAILY TEMPTATIONS (pics)

From top to bottom, left to right.. Macadamia & Caramel Slice, Hedgehog Slice, Vanilla Slice then underneath is Custard Tart, Lamington and finally Caramel Slice.. usually I am not a sweet eater, but a long gaze at these sweet treats are enough to convert anybody.. These are all in the small display fridge on our counter.. staring back at me as I complete each transaction on the cash register.. Below is a full pic of the fridge that contains the slices.. as you will see above them are fresh sandwiches.. Another big temptation, because I used to love me some nice fresh bread.. White bread sandwiches are something that I wont risk at all.
Oh, here it is.. the biggest pain in my ass.. The ultimate temptation. THE PIE OVEN... On the top are Sausage Rolls, then hotdog Sausage Rolls, then the list of pies we sell are as follows..
Plain Mince, Chunky Beef, Steak Bacon & Cheese, Steak Cheese Tomato & Onion, Curried Beef, Steak & Mushroom, Steak & Kidney, Pepper Steak, Chicken & Brocolli, Chicken & Vegetable... I think you've got the idea. Not all the pies listed are this pic, as I took the pic after I had already sold some.



xx Nene

Friday, November 20, 2009

SOMETHING TO WATCH

I was just browsing through youtube and came accross this womans blog. She is so beautiful and inspiring. But what I saw of her is also a little worrying.. www.youtube.com/watch?v=PR9DOEz_bDM I am nervous of this becoming of my body. This woman is stunningly gorgeous, and is so inspiring in her open and honest account of her banding.
Just thought I'd share.

xx Nene

THATS THE WAY.... I LIKE IT

I really dont know whats happening lately, But I likey..My weight is coming off at a steadier rate than it ever has since being banded. I keep getting on the scales, morning, noon and night, expecting to see a gain.. But nope.. I ♥ it. If what I was having was a plataeu, it was a fricken long one, and i dont want to go through that again.
Have a look at my "Statistics"on the right side panel about half way down this page, and you will see that I have recorded alot of entries for this month.. I know I should only really stick to recording once or twice a month, but hey.. I'm on a roll. Now I am down to a 37.4kg loss, looks like my goal to have lost 40kg by xmas is in my sights.. However to be honest, i was hoping to get down to 100kg by then, but it's ok, I make the rules as far as my goal setting goes, and it suits me fine.
With Amy doing her Vlogs, she has inspired me to get a lil courage and do one of my own.. Perhaps I will do one when I hit my 40kg loss, or one for xmas.. which ever comes first.

My sister went in to meet the surgeon who did my band, and she told him about my progress.. He was extremely happy with it, and told her to tell me congrats.. but to take it easy, because he believes that the slower loss is better. Ppfftt.. He also told her that it is not good for the band if you PB more than once per week. Well, there are some weeks that I dont PB at all, the others when it happens with almost every meal that day. But I think the problem there is that instead of tucking into my next meal, I should just stick to liquids untill any inflamation has gone down.. Yeah right.. lol
Well I best get back to work/ temptation/ stinky sweaty work men wanting pies (oh and the temptation is not the stinky sweaty men, it's the pie oven.. thought I'd better clarify that)..
xx Nene

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

DOWN TO THE NEXT 10

OK, I am now 10KG away from 100kg.. I know for some, it is still a huge amount of weight, but for me it is very exciting. I actually woke this morning to the scales telling me that i weigh 109.9kg, and I was so excited that I jumped off, got my camera and got back on, only for it to tell me that I weighed 110.3.. I was like.. WHAT THE...? So I got off again, put my camera down, and this time it told me what you see below.. I figured that was good anyway, so here you see it. Now I'm readdy for the next 10kg loss.. Cant wait :)
These pants are a sz 20, they never even came close to fitting me pre-band. Now they hang off my ass like I have had an accident in them. lol

110 KGS
Well I had a lot to write when i sat to write this blog, But I was sidetracked by one of our employees, who came to teach me how to crochet.. So I will end here and try to remember what else I had to talk about..
xx Nene


Tuesday, November 17, 2009

JUST A FEW PICS

This is Ayisha on the right, and Nekeisha (our friends daughter) on the left.. I just had to take this pic, its soo cute. I always said when i was little that I wanted a daughter with gorgeous curly hair.. all I can say now is..BE CAREFULL WHAT YOU WISH FOR!!!
Me and my Precious Boy.. he really is a very gentle soul.

Yup, this is me and hubby..






My little princess, looks like butter wouldnt melt in her mouth. SOOO not the case.. lol
xx Nene




Thursday, November 12, 2009

My Melbourne Cup Dress Pics

Here are a couple of pics taken on Melbourne Cup morning.. Nov 3, 09.. O love this dress (another new one) BUT as you will notice, the yellow patterned part at the front is a little skew wiff.. which in turn makes my body look a lil odd too.. I wore this dress to work to get in the spirit of all the ladies wearing dresses for the Melbourne Cup, mine certainly wasnt as short or as flashy as many of the fashionistas out there. anyway, just thought I'd share.




Also, I have been having problems with my email account. I have now changed my email address to nenesalifu79@hotmail.com ..
xx Nene


Tuesday, November 10, 2009

RANDOM RAMBLINGS

Hello Everyone in Blogland and beyond.. I must admit, I am kind of feeling on top of the world at the moment. For a few reasons really.. I have come across 2 very lovely ladies that are followers of my blog, and are also both banded. So a very big HELLO from me to TAMMY (the lady I met at the shopping centre, and LARA (my follower from Chatswood, NSW) .. Tammy has followed up our meeting with a lovely email to me, and gave me a little insight of her background, I look forward to a great "band sisterhood" with her. She is absolutely lovely. And then there is Lara, I received an email from Lara, explaining that she is the "mystery reader" from Chatswood, and that she hope that I dont feel like she is stalking me.. I am also very excited to have read in Lara's email that she has only just started her own blog, so when I get her blog address and permission to share it with you all, I will do so. These 2 ladies in the last couple of days have built my self esteem so much. No, I dont have a head swell because I got noticed or anything like that.. But it is so nice to know that I am somewhat of an inspiration to someone, and just may have possibly helped someone feel a little better about things in "band life"..
I really cant imagine not being open about it, but I know there are so many who hide it, and I can totally understand that too. But I do hope that my open-ness helps more than these 2 ladies.

When I ask the silent blog followers to speak up and make themselves known, its not so I get feedback (although I do enjoy to read from people) but it's to help those unconfident ones to have a voice.. (oh lordy this is kind of sounding all speechy).. But I am serious.. because for so long, I used to be one of those, to shy or nervous to put my comments in for fear of what people thought of what I had to say, and pretty much classed myself as insignificant. I am also not saying that this is how every "silent blog follower" feels.. But ín saying this, I am giving you a little history of how I once was.

I have also been told that my blog is not always easy to comment on.. I have discovered this with a few blogs, can anyone shed any light on how this happens or how to make it easier to get along with??

Ok, I am going to do the rest of my blog in point form, as I have a few short statements to make, and want to get them done quick.. (it's getting late and I'm feeling lazy)

  • I woke up this morning, got on the scales after my morning wee wee, and what did I see.. 111.6 k gees... WOOHOO now a total of 35kg loss.. I'm really not on target for how much I wanted to have lost, but I do have some sense of acheivement from this, and I am happy about it.
  • I took a leaf out of AMY's book, and put up our christmas tree this afternoon.. Yes it is early, even my son was telling me so. BUT there is a difference this christmas, I am actually feeling in the spirit, and cannot wait to put up our lights out the front yard on the week end. (more energy, feel better about get togethers, etc. etc.)
  • I know that I have previously blogged about "feeling down" kind of depressed and so forth, and I have noticed that it seems to be happening in the week before my period is due.. Is this PMS?? It comes on quick, and lasts about 4-5 days.. I wake in the morning, and am angry with the world, I dont want to talk to anyone, I just want to sleep the days away.. I'm going to talk to my GP about this. I dont like it at all, and I'm damn sure hubby and the kids dont either.
  • On the work front, there seems to be a new troublesome couple in town, and they are mostly high on some kind of drugs, and prior to the robbery, I really dont think their presence would have bothered me, I probably would have just told them to get out of the shop and dont come back.. But a few of their episodes have left me so shook lately, that I was even dry reaching and had to nervous poops.. So not good. Another thing to talk to the GP about.
  • Another note about the work front, and its temptations... The Pie Oven is all I should say.. I was overcome when I smelled the aroma of the new Chicken and Broccoli pie.. Now, I can not get through the whole pie, BUT I can open it up and eat it's insides.. About 6 mouthfulls of creamy chickeny goodness.. So yum, I'll have to take pics to share.. So I guess you could say I have lost my fight against the pie oven.. AGAIN..

Well my dear readers, I now have a hoarmonal headache, as I am guessing that when I wake tomorrow it will be TTOTM.. So I'm going to have me a nice hot bath and head to bed. Oh I should have put the subject of Baths in my point forms.. now that I can comfortably fit in my bath tub, I have been taking a long hot one each night.. Oh its so good. Aqua Therapy almost, but not as good as retail therapy (smiling widely)

Thanks for reading

xx Nene

Sunday, November 8, 2009

CHATSWOOD NSW???

I was just looking at my LIVE FEED of who visits my blog.. WHO is it from Chatswood NSW??? I think this is the most frequent reader.. but I have never received any feedback from this person.. Just curious... and for all you other blog readers.. check out my live feed, to see what I mean..
xx Nene

Friday, November 6, 2009

SUPER SHOCKED

Ok, now have I got a story to tell.. a story which still leaves me a little shocked.. Yesterday I was out with my sister.. Yes, we were on our way to see the doctor about her getting the lapband.. and we decided to stop by a a few shops on the way, and pick up some kids xmas pressents that we had seen advertised in the catalogues the day before. We stoped at 2 different places, before a last minute stop at the Hypermarket at Aspley, we went there for TOYSRUS.. this shopping centre is about 20 mins drive away from where I live.
Sooo, as we were walking though ToysRUs.. Ayisha was asking for everything in sight, and getting cranky because she couldnt have it all, then when I was paying for the one thing I chose to get (a present for my nephew), she starts carrying on at the checkout, then walks over to the sliding doors, and proceeds to lock them and unlock them.. I was calling out for her to come back to where I was standing, and she just looked back, and grins defiantly, much to my embarrasment.. People everywhere in there were just staring at me, then at her, then back at me.. I was so embarrassed, that when I finally got done with my transaction, I walked over, smacked her bottom, and put her in my trolley..I heard people sniggering, and obviously making unwanted comments about it all, but I just left the store and walked out in a bad bad mood.. THEN, as I am storming out, (angry and frustrated and embarrased all in one) a lady approaches me and I begin to think that this might be another person wanting to comment on Ayisha's hair.. (Ayisha had her hair out yesterday, and it was very wild and wooly, every time it is worn in this style, I get people stopping me and wanting to touch it..lol) then she said that she wanted to stop me, as she is a reader of my blog, and recognized me and Ayisha from the pics that I post on here.. We had a little chat and I asked her name, this lady doesn't blog, but does have a band, and follows some blogs. She was a lovely person, and is looking great, I do hope to get down her end of the scale eventually. Please accept my invitation to email me with your email address so we could possibly catch up one day, if you're interested. nenesalifu@hotmail.com , Please dont think I am that rude or vague all the time.. I was in the middle of a child induced break down.. lol . I left that shopping centre feeling so shocked.. because when I check out the listing of the locations that my blog readers are from, there are people from all over the world, and to be recognized in a shopping centre, was a shock..
But to also be told that this lady reads and enjoys my blog is a good feeling, to know that in some way, it can entertain or enlighten someones day, give ideas or just to relate to..

Now to follow up with my sisters appointment.. we went to see the nurse that I saw when applying to get my band, and it was nice to talk back into that office with confidence. I also noticed that people's before and after pics hadnt been updated on the wall, so as soon as I am looking hot, I am going to send in some pics..back to my sis.. She has now been given a date to be banded on 2nd Feb 2010.. I am super excited for her. And it means that her bandiversaries will only be a few days apart from mine. The thing I am seeing in my sister (lack of confidence, energy, etc...) are all the things I used to feel. It's sad, and takes me back to the beginning of this year, and it just amazes me at how much this band has changed my life. I did however express to the nurse yesterday that I wished I had lost a little more weight than what I have lost already, and she said not to compare myself and so forth, and that I have done a great job.. Sooo with that i stopped on the way home and bought myself another sz 16 (US size 14) lil summer singlet dress..
I am beside myself with excitement that I can actually shop in the "skinny girl section/shops".. for those of you over here who are familiar with Fashion Fair.. I never in a million years dreamed that I would own any garment from that shop.. Well I am becoming a regular spender in there.. I love it.
Another exciting thing to tell you is that 2 days ago, it was hot here, and I suprised my kids by putting on my new bathing suit and jumping into the pool with them. They have never seen me do such a thing. They were very excited and asked if we could do it more often. It's just another incident that makes me realise how far I've come and how much I have missed out on.
Well girls.. that all from me today. Have yourselves a great week end.
xx Nene

Sunday, November 1, 2009

TRICK OR TREAT

Just thought I would share some pics of my kids dressed up for Halloween.. We have a scary bummble bee, and ummm a ... well all Montel wanted was a beard drawn on his face.. he said he was a robber.. In any case, Ayisha was the star of the show.. Most people gave her a few extra treats because she was the smallest amongst the group.. She fell asleep in a sugar frenzy.. she fought and fought, but the eyes lost the battle. Which gave me a chance to hide some of the lollies for when she woke this morning to go in search for more..







I have an appointment with my fill doctor tomorrow.. I am finding that I am really not eating enough for my weight to still be hovering and too'ing and fro'ing around 113kg..I am getting a little frustrated with it.
Also, my sister has booked in for her first appointment to meet with my surgeon, as she is planning to get a band too now.. As you can guess by now, from my mention of her in a previous post, that she didnt go so well with her latest diet attempt. I can so sympathise with her. I also have another friend who joined privat health insurance when I got banded, so her 12 month wait is almost up, for her to be able to go for the band too. IF she sticks with her plan, she will also get banded in the beginning of the new year. My sis is hoping to be done around mid Feb..
I will keep you all posted..
xx Nene